Being unemployed can often mean bouts of insomnia, either minor or severe in duration. With a baby who wakes up two to three times a night, I sometimes find it difficult to get back to sleep in the middle of the night.
Last night, after soothing my little one back to sleep, I tried reading on the sofa. The book was interesting to read, if a little eccentric and economical in prose, and I found myself with heavy eye lids after about a half hour. My mind, however, immediately went into unemployment mode. The thoughts, worries, anxieties, and self-doubt appeared.
I had plenty of ideas that flashed before my eyes, ideas that I probably will never act upon. The other thought that followed was why I found it so hard to act on ideas that made perfect business sense in my mind, but somehow there was too much fear in me to act. Hmmm….